and God said, let the earth bring forth the living creature after his kind, cattle, and creeping thing, and beast of the earth after his kind: and it was so. and God made the beast of the earth after his kind, and cattle after their kind, and every thing that creepeth upon the earth after his kind: and God saw that it was good. and God said, let us make man in our image, after our likeness: and let them have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the fowl of the air, and over the cattle, and over all the earth, and over every creeping thing that creepeth upon the earth. so God created man in his own image, in the image of God created he him; male and female created he them. and God blessed them, and God said unto them, be fruitful, and multiply, and replenish the earth, and subdue it: and have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the fowl of the air, and over every living thing that moveth upon the earth. and God said, behold, i have given you every herb bearing seed, which is upon the face of all the earth, and every tree, in the which is the fruit of a tree yielding seed; to you it shall be for meat. and to every beast of the earth, and to every fowl of the air, and to every thing that creepeth upon the earth, wherein there is life, i have given every green herb for meat: and it was so. and God saw every thing that he had made, and, behold, it was very good. and the evening and the morning were the sixth day.

woke up real late
read mythology encyclopedia with gabby
went to shack
got a burger
got picked up by dad
met dads lady friend
went to the movies
bought stuff
went in
good movie
left
went to maccas
went home
didn't know where mum was
she came home with gab
we took drew to botany
then came home
and chilled on comp
drank a little

and God said, let the waters bring forth abundantly the moving creature that hath life, and fowl that may fly above the earth in the open firmament of heaven. and God created great whales, and every living creature that moveth, which the waters brought forth abundantly, after their kind, and every winged fowl after his kind: and God saw that it was good. and God blessed them, saying, be fruitful, and multiply, and fill the waters in the seas, and let fowl multiply in the earth. and the evening and the morning were the fifth day.

set alarm but didn't wake up until told too
didn't go to the orthodontist
got to school late because of getting petrol and stuff from bakery
religion
photography
recess
religion
english
science
skipped maths for photography

and God said, let there be lights in the firmament of the heaven to divide the day from the night; and let them be for signs, and for seasons, and for days, and years: and let them be for lights in the firmament of the heaven to give light upon the earth: and it was so. and God made two great lights; the greater light to rule the day, and the lesser light to rule the night: he made the stars also. and God set them in the firmament of the heaven to give light upon the earth, and to rule over the day and over the night, and to divide the light from the darkness: and God saw that it was good. and the evening and the morning were the fourth day.

even though i had a good sleep last night, it didn't exactly make me wake up any earlier. but i was happy and optimistic because it was sports day, meaning bludge and early finish. my happy mood was added to with mum buying cheese sticks and chocolate croissants from vivians bakery. so i got dropped off at school by mum, a bit before the bell and went upstairs to hang with the "fags". the bell went for the start of homeroom and we all went to our homeroom, except for james because he's in a different homeroom. i still hadn't brought in my work experience forms for miss dean so once we'd been in homeroom for a while, i asked miss obrien if i could have permission to go and see if miss dean was in her office. after a short walk, i found out she wasn't. bummer. so i went back to homeroom and read some more of my current book, "greenmantle". i really like charles de lint, he's a good writer. some people don't think fantasy is very well i dunno very good literature or something because it doesn't confront ideas and things, but thats how charles de lint is different, he incorporates different ideas into a good story and maintains the fantasy but with a present day element as well. anyway after homeroom i had religion which was very easy seeing as we didn't not one bit of work and mister carpenter just talked for the whole lesson. so once first period was over it was time for recess, and even though i had money, i decided just to get a orange juice, seeing as i had a bit of my chocolate croissant left. recess passed without much event, i just used most of the time listening to my ipod. anyway after recess i had science, which was also another bludge lesson because we had our science tests too mark, so most of the time was spent just talking, sometimes marking my paper, laughing at other people doing bad stuff and getting in trouble. i figured out that i'd been owed a few marks, so i asterixed them and left my paper on my teachers desk. so the bell went for third period and it was time too go to english. the first part of english was spent talking about chasers war and other things, and then after that we were reading some of macbeth. ryan and me were using ramesh's book too share because he was reading macduff. it was a pretty fun lesson. it usually is when people get to read, because its always a perfect chance for mischief. english ended without any homework as did all my other subjects so i was happy with that and then it was time for lunch. i went and lined up at the tuckshop and got a pie with sauce and went to the art room courtyard to throw around some waterbombs. i've decided i have to walk the long way to the art room now because theres this annoying little kid, who i only know "of" because i know his two cousins, and he always heckles me. like come on hes a year sevener so its not like he can do anything but its just so annoying. i think next time i'll scare him so he fucks off. anyway so i went to the artroom and spent most of the time throwing around waterbombs, crates and waterfights and stuff. it was actually pretty fun and went rather quickly. after the bell went for the start of sports we all went to the quadrangle and lined up in our respective sports lines. i do walking for sports. its easy so yeah. most weeks i walk with jay and russo. anyway so we were walking to heffron today, even though i begged for us to walk to the beach. on the way there i saw a speed limit sign for a sixty zone that i wanted to go back and get but didn't. anyway so once the whole group had gotten to the park at heffron, me and jay went to go fill up waterbombs. unfortunately one popped in a pocket of mine which was annoying but still we had more left. so we went back to the park and threw them around, without miss surany or miss higgins seeing. anyway nothing much happened at the park. russo was talking to some south sydney girls who i didn't know but jay and russo obviously did. we stayed at the park for a bit, and then miss surany and higgins said it was time to start walking back and so we headed back through the ovals back too school. we got our names marked off and so i sat and waited for mum too come, it didn't worry me that she was late because she usually is. so mum picked me up about twenty minutes late but it was ok and me and her had some time too spare till we went to pick up drew and kate so we went to the mobile phone shop to see if my phone had been fixed yet. apparently he hadn't even started yet, so hopefully it will be done soon. then we went to drews school, picked her and kate up, and went home. when i got home i got changed straight away and headed off to the shack. i hung at the shack for a while, just playing around on the computers. when it go near 4:30 i started looking for abc on the shack television but it wasn't there so i had to go home to watch avatar which i enjoyed alot. after that i went back to the shack and hanged there but nothing much was really happening there and i was getting bored. so i went home and just watched some television and on and off the computer. i watched a good show of law and order and heroes at the same time. i hate it when theres two shows that are good on at the same time. anyway it was getting a bit late so i decided tonight i'd pack my bag for school tomorrow. then i went up to my room, cleaned up my room and then got into bed and watched star gate, read some of greenmantle and went to sleep.

and God said, let the waters under the heaven be gathered together unto one place, and let the dry land appear: and it was so. and God called the dry land earth; and the gathering together of the waters called he seas: and God saw that it was good. and God said, let the earth bring forth grass, the herb yielding seed, and the fruit tree yielding fruit after his kind, whose seed is in itself, upon the earth: and it was so. and the earth brought forth grass, and herb yielding seed after his kind, and the tree yielding fruit, whose seed was in itself, after his kind: and God saw that it was good. and the evening and the morning were the third day.

i woke up
homeroom
period one
p 2
recess
p 3
p 4
lunch
detention
p5
p6
home
drew and gab fight
chat with gab
bbq
hillsong bus ride
afris
fight with mum
dinner
chasers war
summer heights high

and God said, let there be a firmament in the midst of the waters, and let it divide the waters from the waters. and God made the firmament, and divided the waters which were under the firmament from the waters which were above the firmament: and it was so. and God called the firmament heaven. and the evening and the morning were the second day.

today i woke up a little late, had a shower and was dissapointed to find that the winx club isn't on anymore. or at least not in the timeslot it used to be. i'll have to check. but anyway, today i got money for lunch and made sure not to forget this time. i sat next to isaac in homeroom today, because we're in a new room for homeroom. i don't know exactly why, something about exams i think, i wonder how long it will last. anyway mister carpenter came around the classes checking for people who hadn't brought in absent notes from last term, and well i was one of them so i got a fifteen minute detention. after that i went back into class and it was time for dear. all the readers who help the year sevens left and the small group that gets left behind had to read. i dont know why i didn't get chosen the help the year sevens read, i'm a good reader and miss mills knows that i think. its most likely i was misbehaving when it came time for her to choose. anyway so i read a bit of the book i'm reading at the moment by charles de lint. then dear, which is drop everything and read, abbreviated, ended so it was off too photography. i decided that i would put in some effort this lesson, and after realising i had the wrong theory sheet, i shared with martin and we sort of attempted to begin our theory. now if you've ever done art you'll know that the theory is alot more difficult and not very defined, so its hard to figure out what you have to write. i think i was pretty productive in photography but i've still got to make sure i've got all my shit together soon. anyway after photography i had science, which i still hadn't done my cleanup for, but mister fitzgerald was nice and didn't mind. in science we got our school certificate trial tests back, and i got 54 out of 100. apparently this was actually a pretty good mark for my class, and isaac who i sit next too and who is also pretty good at science, better than me most probably because he actually puts in effort, got 57 out of 100. the science lesson passed with out much event and it was time for recess. i had money for recess so i decided to buy an orange juice and a sausage roll with sauce. ryan hassled me a little bit about the one dollar, but i told him i'd give it too him at lunch cause i didn't have the right change yet. after that i went to mister hume because i had the lunch time clean up which i had to do for mister fitzgerald, and i basically just stood around holiding a bin the whole time until the end of recess. so recess ended and it was time for pass. luckily today we had practical so i didn't have to sit through a boring lesson, but the downside was that it was a scorcher, and sir decided that we would go over to the park to play cricket. its funny how it gets very hot, just after the holidays which usually have shit weather. oh well summers gonna be better. anyway, i had fun playing cricket at the park, there were lots of annoying flies, but still i had fun. i did bowl very terribly though and my fielding wasn't much better. anyway after practical was over i had english in the library which is usually a bludge lesson where i go on the computers, right in my english note pad whatever i feel like at the time, draw, or be naughty. sometimes i read. but yeah. this time i decided to do some photocopies of crossword puzzles which i found lying on one of the desks in the library. isaac helped me do some of the crossword, and so did mister king at the end of the period. after library finished it was time for lunch and i bought a chocolate billabong and a packet of chips. and after that i gave ryan two dollars, and he said he'd pay me back tomorrow with the one dollar. i realised i still had the fifteen minute detention too do, so i went to the detention room, a little late, but fortunately it was mister adams whose usually nice and who actually helped me out with my crossword puzzle while i was on detention. after the detention i went to the art room courtyard where i found matthew woolaston wet from having a bucket of water poured on him by reg. so i hanged out there until the end of lunch. then all of us except james went to computer studies, because he's not in our class for that. computer studies was easy, we got asked to make two postcards, so i made one from iraw and another from woomera detention centre. after that i had a little time to bludge and i finally got onto a proxy that let me use myspace properly. the period bell went and i went off too pdhpe which luckily we had practical for. another boring lesson of theory avoided. for pdhpe we had a subsitute teacher which always makes the lesson that much more fun. we were all meant to be playing basketball with various teams but it was mainly just our class mucking around, not doing anything, bludging, hitting eachother with balls, jumping on eachothers backs etc. near the end of the lesson we all went back to get changed which in itself was a form of amusement as most students were calling out things like "stop looking miss, i'm naked", "dont look at my willy", "don't look at my nipples" etc. seeing as we had a female substitue teacher and she wasn't allowed in the room while we changed. after that it was time to go to homeroom. after the bell went miss obrien held me and a few others back a little to ask us about our work placement forms for work experience. i lied and said i'd had mine organised, well i did, but now i'm having second doubts about wanting to do work experience with my dads friend. he was going to pay me and all but i was thinking about doing it with the guys from chasers war. i think it would be much more fun. i might even get on the show. anyway i got picked up by mum, who was unusually early. and when i got home i got on the computer and well i've been on here basically ever since. now i've got to go put out the bins, see if my clothes have finished washing and then go to bed.

in the beginning God created the heaven and the earth. and the earth was without form, and void; and darkness was upon the face of the deep. and the spirit of God moved upon the face of the waters. and God said, let there be light: and there was light. and God saw the light, that it was good: and God divided the light from the darkness. and God called the light day, and the darkness he called night. and the evening and the morning were the first day.


first day back at school. getting out of holiday mode was a challenge, nearly fell asleep in pass but i guess that might also have been helped by the fact that it was pass and we had theory. the beginning of my day was pretty good. i'd forgotten to take my ritalin, but fortunately my mum brought up my vitamins and ritalin. i decided to take my vitamins and keep my ritalin for later as i was having fun in hyperactive mode. history was fun because i was sitting next to reg and we just sat there having fun etc. i had miss obrien for history as i have all this year. she's a very good teacher, and a very smart person in my belief, i think she gets annoyed at me when i act up in class because she can see i'm interested in history and learning in that subject so she probably gets let down when i'm not being good and learning. after that i had photography, where my mood was slightly dampened by ryan and martin but still, all good. i have to do my theory and video for photography but wasn't up to it so i wasn't very productive in photography. i've really got to do those two things cause i want to go good in photography. i've got miss surany for photography, who basically thinks i'm perfect or close too. i guess its good because then i have something to work towards, by actually making my work as good as she expects it. so far i've been good in photography so i want to keep that up. then there was recess where i realised i'd forgotten my lunch money in the car somewhere, so i rang my mum up and had a slight argument in the office, and i have no doubt the office ladies were listening. i hanged up on mum because she wasn't listening to me, and then one of the office ladies said to me i hope you didn't just do to your mum what i think you did. i ignored her and left the office. that one is always being smart with me, and the office ladies usually just sit around and do nothing anyway. once i was in the sickbay from the start of lunch and they didn't bother to ring my dad until the end of the day, infact they'd all together forgotten i was in there. that's besides the point. anyway i tried using the payphone to ring her back as well, to no avail. so i resorted to begging matthew woolaston to use his phone. he hates me using it, and usually says he has no credit, but in the end he usually gives in. not to self, be nicer too woolaston. anyway i rang my dad and asked him if he could bring in some lunch money and he said yes, but he'd only make it up for lunch time which was fine, i could go out with recess. then i rung my mum too let her know not too worry, but she then told me she could get driven up and drop off money, so mum let dad know that he didn't need to worry about it, and she left some money for me at the office for lunch. after recess i had maths, which i had a good time in because i usually get a laugh out of whatever michael and joey say, sometimes directed at me sometimes others but still they're pretty funny unless michael turns on you. hmm i feel sorry for mister rush, i'm pretty sure we're the worst maths class he's ever had. nobody seems to want to learn, or at least not the majority of the class. i'm sure he likes us as people, but he gets frustrated because he's trying his best to help us learn and well most of us don't really pay attention, me included most of the time. anyway after maths was science. science for me is usually just having fun and bludging, although i do put in effort every now and then. mister fitzgerald is a good teacher and i usually annoy him by asking too many questions, sometimes i do it on purpose or sometimes i'm just interested. it's hard for him to teach our class for mostly the same reasons as it is for mister rush to teach our maths class. i sit next too isaac in science and usually i just make jokes about things with him. mainly its me joking, him laughing but anyway. i got a ten minute clean up from mister fitzgerald yesterday because i wouldn't be quiet etc. probably because i didn't take my ritalin but oh well, its just a ten minute clean up. and i had fun anyway. after science was lunch, so first i went and bought some stuff from the canteen with the five dollars i had left from the ten that mum had dropped off, because i had lost five dollars in between the time the office boy had given it too me and when i left the science room. oh well some lucky person got five dollars. anyway then i went to the courtyard near the art room and hanged with jeremy james and isaac and reg and woolaston. reg and woolaston went off and the rest of us were just talking about a show called avatar: the last airbender, which i have seen the ads for but not actually seen, and i think i'm going to start watching it. during lunch ryan came and found me in the courtyard with what most people call "the fags". i used to hang with this group at lunch and recess and was involved in all their little bitchy arguments, rumour sharing, insult making etc. now i just come and hang with them at lunch time because i enjoy their company and to be honest they don't judge me as much as my "recess" friends. well anyway ryan had come to get a dollar off me which i'd borrowed off him earlier in the day to ring mum. i obviously didn't have to dollar cause i had to buy lunch but ryan didn't see this logic and had a hissie fit, and so i said what are you going to buy from the canteen anyway, its not like theres much you can get for lunch with a dollar, but apparently all he needed for lunch was an icy pole. so he left angry with me. anyway the bell went and it was time to go to the afore mentioned pass. it was obviously theory for pass as it was the start of a new term and we always bring books first lesson, so we can write in our diarys for the rest of the term which lessons are theory and which are practical. i was sitting next to martin and didn't talk much, and i think ryan was sort of still angry, it might have been just me but i think he kept glancing over at me. i copped a bit of shit from michael who was sitting infront of me in pass and a little from dean, which got me in a bit of a bad mood. after pass we had our last period of the day which was pdhpe, where the first part of the lesson was spent writing in which lessons were theory and which lessons were practical for pdhpe this term. then the whole class went down and sat in the courtyard and one by one we got our height, weight, and mister hume calculate our body mass index. my height was 186.2 i think and my weight was around 79 kilograms i think and my body mass index was 23%. anyway so we were all just sitting around waiting for our turn and michael was paying me out and so we both started paying eachother out and stuff which was starting too annoy me. i get payed out mainly by people calling me a pedo which i know isn't true but it still annoys me. it's only because i went out with a girl younger than me. and i get payed out as well now for "smelling" apparently. sometimes i do, i admit it, but it's not like i can't help it, my mum has a disease so i can't really wear the strong stinky shit deoderants like lynx that they use and which i used to love to use. so i have to use low fragrance deoderants which makes me self conscious about how i smell and even makes me think about who i sit next too now. anyway we had homeroom, and went home. mum picked me up and she was on the computer so i decided i'd lay on the couch and watch a bit of cartoons, which didn't work out because the small nap i decided to have turned into me sleeping until around seven or eight o'clock. so i got up half awake half asleep and went onto the computer and didn't do much except look for online episodes of avatar, which proved very difficult to find, well actually impossible lastnight. mum or billie cooked some pasta for dinner. probably billie, but anyway i didn't feal in the mood for pasta so i just ate some sandwiches of peanut butter banana and honey and talked to people online. i got off the computer at about eleven thirty, after my mum having too nag me from out the back. i went upstairs to try and get to bed but couldn't. i think it might have been because i took my ritalin tablet late in the day in pass, and possibly because i had a sleep after school as well. so anyway i watched two episodes of everybody loves raymond which were pretty good, and sort of watched some proactiv payed program and then finally got to bed.

i've decided i'm going to be keeping a sort of diary, journal of each day. not very detailed unless i think it's needed, but just so i can look over it in months and years to come and say hey i remember that, or fuck when did that happen. so i will be doing this for the rest of my school time in year ten. oh and this is sort of just a reminder too me. you feel free to remind me if i forget one day ok.
this is also a personal reminder to myself to actually put effort into my education. school may be hated by most kids but its what gives us our future, knowledge and education. so i need to make sure i'm putting in the effort. you can do it kel!

kel is a brown jesus
kel is getting popular
kel is the focal point
kel is the hero that is the most skilled in keeping his emotions hidden
kel is the best show to come from all that alumni
kel is a prosperous barony on the eastern edge of the kingdom of dizan
kel is a data manipulation component that builds a “mineable” representation of an event history
kel is a fast aggregation and transformation tool that enables analysts and business professionals to get more power out of their data warehouse
kel is a psychic
kel is hanging out with kenan at work when a circus clown enters rigby's and robs the store
kel is playing and i have to run for the remote to change the channel
kel is a much quieter place
kel is now closed
kel is from perth
kel is a fortified town northwest of maston past the forest of korresh
kel is the closest spot in korresh to the elven lands of lirynn
kel is adorable and a funny guy
kel is easy to use
kel is expected to promote a vehicle exchange program
kel is true to his bio 'he can sing anything' and performs with his own distinctive sound
kel is determined to become accepted as himself; he likes being a boy
kel is an asset to his tribe
kel is wet from the rain and some 40 minutes late
kel is that he
kel is determined to survive his probation
kel is buff
kel is indeed a charmer
kel is doing all the work
kel is a force to be reckoned with
kel is unique in many ways
kel is cute and ryan thinks christine is cute too
kel is an appealing and
kel is a direct consequence of the fact that contemporary issues in environmental science and management all have a
kel is the name he is known by
kel is a valuable role model
kel is in a hip hop group called the maft
kel is to
kel is regularly asked to present on the issue of brand as a guest and speaker
kel is "under self construction" so to speak
kel is out
kel is funny for the whole family
kel is een gratis service die particulieren de gelegenheid biedt advertenties te plaatsen op internet
kel is een televisieprogramma voor kinderen
kel is about to make their sensual relationship a mere formality
kel is her great hunk o' spunk and he touches her in nooks and unexplored crannies that she didn't know existed
kel is the overall elimination
kel is from the planet winda
kel is a spelling variation of the name 'kell'
kel is the senior scientist of the laboratory
kel is onwijs grappig en keenan denkt vaak dat hij leuk is terwijl hij
dat niet is
kel is a
kel is better suited to neal
kel is rather
kel is out the million
kel is approaching old age for a symbiont
kel is also like most people in his world
kel is in an aggressive mood
kel is at
kel is the hero unit for the gla
kel is shy
kel is a well
kel is a member of several community groups and organisations
kel is
kel is my best bro in atlanta and my closest trans friend
kel is one of the leading bioinformaticians with more than 75
publications to his credit
kel is operated by dr
kel is three things
kel is a member of autotech
kel is the first girl to take advantage of the kings decree that girls
may train to become knights
kel is associated with the legend of pona krek
kel is able to display her true abilities as she leads a group of knights
to a group of immortals
kel is now the ceo of the company however greg has hinted that he will take his position back when he returns from the rok
kel is considering leaving the army to move to la and pursue acting
kel is afraid of losing me and thus reacted that way
kel is in perfect health the next morning
kel is gone
kel is the youngest god
kel is definitely the shortest
kel is infuriated
kel is a sex goddess

remember, remember the fifth of november, the gunpowder treason and plot. i know of no reason why the gunpowder treason should ever be forgot.
voilà! in view, a humble vaudevillian veteran, cast vicariously as both victim and villain by the vicissitudes of fate. this visage, no mere veneer of vanity, is a vestige of the vox populi, now vacant, vanished. however, this valorous visitation of a by-gone vexation, stands vivified, and has vowed to vanquish these venal and virulent vermin vanguarding vice and vouchsafing the violently vicious and voracious violation of volition. the only verdict is vengeance; a vendetta, held as a votive, not in vain, for the value and veracity of such shall one day vindicate the vigilant and the virtuous. verily, this vichyssoise of verbiage veers most verbose so let me simply add that it's my very good honor to meet you, and you may call me v.
beneath this mask there is more than flesh and bones. beneath this mask there is an idea, mr. creedy, and ideas are bulletproof.
fear became the ultimate tool of this government.
our story begins, as these stories often do, with a young up-and-coming politician. he's a deeply religious man and a member of the conservative party. he's completely single-minded and has no regard for the political process. the more power he attains, the more obvious his zealotry and the more aggressive his supporters become. eventually, his party launches a special project in the name of national security. at first, it's believed to be a search for biological weapons and is pursued without regard to its cost. however, the true goal of this project is power; complete and total hegemonic domination. the project, however, ends violently. but the efforts of those involved are not in vain, for a new ability to wage war is born from the blood of the victims. imagine a virus, the most terrifying virus you can, and then imagine that you and you alone have the cure. but if the ultimate goal is power, how best to use such a weapon?
well, it's at this point in our story that along comes a spider. here is a man seemingly without a conscience for whom the ends always justify the means, and it is he who suggests that their target should not be an enemy of the country, but rather the country itself. three targets are chosen to maximize the effect of the attack: a school, a tube station, and a water treatment plant. several hundred die within the first few weeks. fueled by the media, fear and panic spread quickly, fracturing and dividing the country until at last the true goal comes into view. before the st. mary's crisis, no one would have predicted the results of the election that year, no one. and not long after the election, lo and behold, a miracle. some believed it was the work of god himself, but it was a pharmaceutical company controlled by certain party members that made them all obscenely rich. a year later, several extremists are trialled, found guilty and executed while a memorial is built to canonize their victims.
but the end result, the true genius of the plan, was the fear. fear became the ultimate tool of this government, and through it our politician was ultimately appointed to the newly created position of high chancellor. the rest, as they say, is history.
a revolution without dancing is a revolution not worth having.
no more tricks. no more lies. only truth.
people should not be afraid of their governments. governments should be afraid of their people.
artists use lies to tell the truth while politicians use them to cover the truth up.
because he was right. this country needs more than a building right now. it needs hope.
remember, remember the fifth of november the gunpowder treason and plot. i know of no reason why the gunpowder treason should ever be forgot. but what of the man? i know his name was guy fawkes and i know that in 1605 he attempted to blow up the houses of parliament, but who was he really? what was he like? we are told to remember the idea, not the man. because a man can fail. he can be caught. he can be killed and forgotten. but four hundred years later an idea can still change the world. i've witnessed firsthand the power of ideas. i've seen people kill in the name of them; and die defending them. but you cannot touch an idea, cannot hold it or kiss it. an idea does not bleed, it cannot feel pain, and it does not love. and it is not an idea that I miss, it is a man. a man who made me remember the fifth of november. a man i will never forget.
you wear a mask for so long, you forget who you were beneath it.
vi veri veniversum vivus vici
by the power of truth, i, while living, have conquered the universe.
he was edmund dantès. and he was my father. and my mother. my brother. my friend. he was you, and me. he was all of us.

i am jack's raging bile duct. i am jack's cold sweat. i am jack's complete lack of surprise. i am jack's smirking revenge. i am jack's broken heart. i am jack's used diaper filled with indian food. i am jack's turd covered in burnt hair. i am jack's overwhelming regret. i am jack's sense or rejection. i am jack's inferiority complex. i am jack's flaming personality. i am jack's shit ass hammer knife and pot. i am jack's nursery rhyme. i am jack's boat people scandal. i am jack's war on terror. i am jack's coalition of the willing.

watch your thoughts, they become words. watch your words, they become actions. watch your actions, they become habits. watch your habits, they become character. watch your character, it becomes your destiny.

i can't believe that the leader of the so called free world can be so idiotic. there are many rumours, theories, conspiracys about his government and himself, some with which i believe or agree with and some i do not. but one thing is for certain. something is wrong upstairs with the commander in chief. here are just a few "bushisms".

"i feel strongly that there ought to be fair justice."
huh?

"i heard somebody say, 'where's nelson mandela?' well, mandela's dead. because saddam killed all the mandelas."
just to let you know, mandela is very much alive and well.

"mr. Prime Minister, thank you for your introduction. thank you for being such a fine host for the OPEC summit."
don't you men APEC, georgie?

"as john howard accurately noted when he went to thank the austrian troops there last year..."
i think you'll find that it's said australian.

"bush goes to hel. that's what a lot of people want."
- george w. bush, on his visit to the hel peninsula, poland.

"and there is distrust in washington. i am surprised, frankly, at the amount of distrust that exists in this town. and i'm sorry it's the case, and i'll work hard to try to elevate it."
well you sure stayed true to that promise.

"most of our imports come from other countries."
hmm are you sure about that?

lately, i've been getting really into the arts and stuff and how i can express myself creatively whether that be writing, or more artsy stuff. i do photography at school as a 100 hour elective course for year 10 and i've really been enjoying it. i like the fact that i can combine my thoughts and ideas creatively with whatever artsy talents i have. and i like the fact that its not always about the skill but the meaning behind a work as well. i attended an art even at the MCA with a couple of friends and i really enjoyed it. there were some confronting works there, but i tried my best to take it all in as much as possible.

if you are concerned about the way this world is at the moment and the way in which this world is heading and either want to do something about it or want to know how to you should have a look at a few of these sites. now is the time when things need to be changed, because our earth and the survival of the human race itself depends on how the world on a whole acts and reacts to the challenges which are facing us at the moment.

http://www.amnesty.org/

http://www.climatecrisis.net/aboutthefilm/

http://www.makepovertyhistory.org/

i know most people will ignore this, but for those out there who actually want to know the truth about many of the things that happened concerning the so called "terrorist attacks" on america on 9/11, they will check out this site. this is not just some bullshit, there is actually evidence and fact to substantiate the claims made so you should have a look. you might be interested by what you learn.

http://www.myspace.com/wtc_7

i think i'm going to start reading some more. i love the feeling i get, being lost between those pages in fantasy worlds. and i love being able to get away from the shit of my life and just read about something so fantastical that i wish i was able to enter those pages and be lost within those worlds forever or at least for a while. want to start reading some more books.

what's the point of having these friends if they dont understand you or don't even want to understand you.. if they dont want to listen to what you have to say, and just tell you to shutup whenever you talk. when the only thing they do is critisise you. when your only invited to a party because you know girls and so you have to come. why bother with friends when they think your ideas are stupid, your interests ridiculous and you yourself talentless, boring or annoying. why have friends who bitch about eachother and you behind your backs, when they can't say their real problems to eachothers faces. why hang around people when they dont appreciate you for you, when they just make you feel like shit and sad while your walking home, wondering if you actually do have any friends who truly understand you and when you think to yourself you realise that sadly you cannot name any that know the real you. what the fuck are friends for if all they do for you is fuck you up more than you were already fucked up to start with huh?

i want those friends that will always be there for you. the ones that you talk to and they actually listen, the ones that give a fuck. i want those friends that are so in sync with you, they could be another you.

"so no one told you life was gonna be this way
your job's a joke, you're broke, your love life's d.o.a.
it's like you're always stuck in second gear
when it hasn't been your day, your week, your month, or even your year
but
i'll be there for you, when the rain starts to pour
i'll be there for you, like I've been there before
i'll be there for you, because you're there for me too"

i was thinking about stuff and i started wondering, why people like destroying things, that they or other people have made or put alot of hard work into. just like how people enjoy destroying the sand castle once its made, blowing down a house made out of cards, pushing over a line of dominos that someone has spent ages making, giving away the ending to a good book or a movie, scribbling on someones drawing.
this reminds me of a quote from fight club by chuck palahniuk "i felt like putting a bullet between the eyes of every panda that wouldn't screw to save its species. i wanted to open the dump valves on oil tankers and smother all those french beaches i'd never see. i wanted to breathe smoke. i felt like destroying something beautiful."
maybe this sort of stuff is why people are destroying the earth and eachother. maybe it's human nature.
or maybe we're just told that so often, that we start to believe that we are some foul experiment gone wrong. that we are "not special. not a beautiful or unique snowflake." that we "are the same decaying organic matter as everything else."
this may be true that we are just like all the other life forms on this planet. maybe theres a god maybe not, but besides that, shouldn't we be trying to make the best of the time we can, by making less war and violence, by devoting our time to the betterment of mankind, to stopping prejudices and discrimination, to stop the damaging of the earth.
or maybe it's just human nature. what would i know.

i'm going to be primeminister. but i wonder whether people even care about who they vote for and why these days. do you care about kevin rudds foriegn policy, or john howards stance in relation to the growth of global warming. or are you more concerned about whos going to give you more for having a baby, or who's going to make sure the rich keep earning and the poor keep struggling, maybe your worried about which candidate went to a strip club, or which goes for walks in the morning. because surely you shouldn't have to waste time thinking about why you are voting for this person, someone who will potentially run a nation! because of course they're all politicians, they're all slimy bastards, and it definitely couldn't be possible that there may be some of these "slimy bastards" that actually want to make a difference, for the better! of course not.
so when it comes time to vote, time for you to use your precious right, don't bother choosing the candidate who will actually make a difference, better a nation, and possibly the world. just close your eyes, point your finger, and whichever one it lands on, theres our next pm.